The Reality Race

The problem with humans is that they're all taking part in what may be called the “reality race”. Being human we need to be able to function in different ways, at school, at work, as a good parent, a caring husband, etcetera. On the other hand we also want to enjoy the different things we do. We fancy to like the things we're in some way obliged to. And these two opposites; the pressure to function, versus the desire to enjoy, are not easily attuned. We all have some method to cope with this. Little or big tricks which make parts of the reality-race slightly easier. Again, there is just one rule. The only thing matters is who has the highest energy.

There's a complicating factor. Everyone's taking part in this race, and everyone is trying to win; To perform better in the race. To have higher energies, to be better at certain skills, to have a higher dose of happiness. At the same time, you can spend your whole life not actively realising this. On the other hand some humans don't refrain from showing off their standings in the race. Which can be irritating, because people are entangled emotionally. This means someone who's performing better at the race becomes an increasing problem. Unless this person is able to translate the energy (so others can profit from it without having to know the origin of the extra energy), he or she easily becomes a nuisance.

Someone displaying personal power can both be a positive and a negative thing. Most often it's negative. People tend to use it as a guarding aura, not as something mysterious which holds a most rewarding promise. Really few high-energy people remain fully “accessible” for everyone. We generally don't like high-energies we do not understand. We don't want 'such' people to be happy, and therefore we hardly notice the energy. We even tend to actively forget the people, for they're not of our kind. If people are to see it, they really have to be confronted with the higher energy (due to external circumstances). And even then they try to compare it and diminish it, to their own levels. On the other hand, there are a whole bunch of people we do understand. We like to see them being happy, because we share their energies. We depend in some way on their happiness. If they get depressed, some part of our little world is just not right, and we hate it.

There's generally two kinds of people. We have A and B types, and some rare individuals who shift from the one to the other, or even integrate the two. The following scenario is possible. At some point, through a sudden flash of pure insight, someone shifts from A to B. What happens is that the person still remembers quite clearly how it felt to belong to the other camp. All other A's still recognize the person as one of their group, although he or she recently aquired a lot of strangeness and distance. They may even comprehend on some level what he or she is going through (falsly assuming they have passed that stadium already). The B types also have the feeling the person is one of their group, yet a very weak member. Someone needing support.

It takes time. Someone going through such a change needs to align with the newly discovered darker side of himself. I mentioned the word before. The dark side needs to be integrated. Balance also is an important concept. Awareness of the other side makes a person more complete, more able to perform at the reality race, but it doesn't mean one should never again pay any attention to the more familiar side. That's just stupid. You never needed the other side, and now you suddenly think you totally depend upon it. Perhaps you now see the boundaries of hell, but that doesn't make you Lucifer. Also the reason why B-types stay that way is because they depend too much on the lower and baser emotions. They aquired their position through self-interest, not trusting others, lying and deceiving. Taking on a mindset of a basic trust of the good in people is just too much for them. Their first reaction to such initiatives is a certain pride; They laugh about it because people displaying such emotions places them at their mercy.

The point is, really high energies tend to be integrated. You need goodness if you want to tear at it. It's really not that complicated. People just do not trust you when you're totally evil. You won't be able to share any energy at all. If you tend to continually deceive yourself, who will feel at ease with you? Ultimately goodness means fully knowing and trusting yourself. Evil is the result of witholding your own responses of distrust when you look in someone elses eyes. Which tends to be pleasurable.

Music: listening

Do not always listen to music you know already. Try music you're unfamiliar with. This can be hard. While listening some music you naturally desire to have a good time. To be positively touched by the music. Music is about emotions and the trick is not only to strengthen existing emotions by listening often to the music you like, but also discover some radically new ones. Emotions you have not yet experienced before. These kind of emotions are not going to be strong the first time they come up. This is easy to understand, because they're totally not 'trained'. It's even a hard job to get them to the surface of consciousness. Being able to enjoy them will take some time. Then again, while listening to unknown music, the moment will come when you are pleasantly suprised in some strange way. There's just one rule. It will never happen with familiar music.

There are roughly two ways to make such discoveries a bit easier. The first one is based on the assumption that we need to set free the unconscious mind. Let the music toy with your mind. To do this, you just put on a cd. Don't skip tracks. And don't actively listen, but put it loud, if possible. Now and then you'll notice the music automatically. Go do something else entirely. For example, reading something which is not too difficult. While the music plays your mind will be triggered at times. The interesting thing is, this will happen at the genuinely sweet and amazing moments. At a certain point I got myself wondering: “What the f*ck!! This is totally gorgious, who wrote this?”.

The other way around is the hyper-alert way. Listen to the music without doing anything else. Let yourself be totally absorbed. If your mind can shift into a 'silent' mode of full attention, you'll notice you can spot you're own emotional peaks; The points at which you'll be enjoying the music. This won't happen while being in your ordinary mental state. It's best to do this kind of thing while you feel rested and also happen to have a whole day off. The trick is to totally disregard your emotional peaks. Do not fear, you won't lose them. By doing this you make some room for emotions you don't know yet. After a while this way of listening will leave you in a very freaky mental state: not knowing how to response to what. At that point, you'll likely encounter something new and utterly mysterious.